And look what Facebook led me to...

I got on Facebook today. Like usual. And while I was looking around (*cough* stalking) it made me realize how blessed I am. Really, I know I say that in like every post, but I am. I have these wonderful friends, awesome roommates, a warm apartment, an education, enough food to satisfy my ever hungry stomach... but most of all I have the Gospel. It is so wonderful. And what I am most grateful for is the comfort and knowledge that it brings into my life. Like the knowledge that no matter what happens, it's gonna work out. If I don't get that application done, it's gonna work out. If my laptop crashes and doesn't save that paper I've been working on for five hours, it's gonna work out.

If I trip and fall down these stairs on the way to class and break every bone in my body... hey, it's gonna work out. If that one guy doesn't ask me out... then he's stupid, but it's still gonna work out. If I lose my signature card while walking home, well it totally did work out. And if that one decision that could change my life is just nagging and hanging out in my head distracting me from all else, just keep praying and He's gonna help me work it out :)

I guess ya'll can see where I'm going with this. God has a plan for all of us... But we don't always understand that plan. We're kind of incapable of that, at least right now. I've always been a stubborn person, and I am not always willing to let go. We like to call it the Burg-Woman Syndrome in our family.

For example: If my brother tells me that I should wear shoes instead of slippers while it's snowing... then no, I'm going to keep on wearing those slippers cuz I want to, even if my toes are icicles and may have to be amputated later on. If I missed that PK during a soccer game, then I am going to practice for hours and hours to get it right even if I never get a chance to take one again. So as you can tell, I don't like being wrong and I don't like letting go. But I have to. That's what I've learned from this gospel, and especially what I've learned from being on my own. It's not all about me. What it's really about is doing the dishes for your roommate, babysitting your cousin's kitten, letting your brother use the washer first, being a listener, going easy on that one kid in soccer, giving up that one argument, listening to that still, small voice... Humility. Meekness. Charity. Forgiveness. Love. Trust.

 "Remember faith, virtue, knowledge, temperance, patience, brotherly kindness, godliness, charity, humility, diligence. Ask and ye shall recieve; knock and it shall be opened unto you. Amen." 

Doctrine and Covenants 4:6

God loves us. He wants the best for us. All we have to do is look outside ourselves and be a little humble, and He will answer any prayer we send His way. It may not be the answer we want, but that's when we have to let go and just trust. "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." (Proverbs 3:5-6) Even though I think I know a lot, well, he knows more. Infinitely more. He's there, always waiting, always there to help it "work out." All we have to do is just knock...